Why Do I Bother?

Mel left this afternoon for her annual trip to [tag]Japan[/tag]. Actually, it’s not to Japan every year but this is the third year in a row that she has gone there.

It is very hard to be away from her. I was telling her via AIM that I find myself wishing that we had about 15 more minutes to say [tag]goodbye[/tag]. Just time enough for a good hug, a good kiss, and some looking into her eyes longingly.

We drove down to Eugene this morning to the airport and on the way she asked me what it was like for me when she left for such a long time. I told her, “the first couple days it doesn’t seem quite real. It’s like you are just away for the weekend. About the third or fourth day it starts to hit me and I start feeling very [tag]sad[/tag] and [tag]lonely[/tag]. The bed is too big, too cold, and too quiet. Then about day seven or eight I start thinking … this isn’t so bad, I could get used to this.” We laughed.

I hate letting her go, but I am also very excited for her. I think it is wonderful that she has these kinds of opportunities with her work. I am a bit jealous. She has earned this. Someday we can [tag]travel[/tag] together.

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